"Sometimes I think back on many of the things I have done. The lives I have taken, the hurt I've caused. The weight of it all can sometimes come crashing in on me, like waves into the shore. Sometimes, I wish I could just take it all back" - Madlyn
I didn't want to leave the safety of my Prince and castle but Regina would not stop and I didn't want Colin to be dragged further into this mess than he already had. So instead of telling him the real reason for wanting to leave so suddenly, I told him we needed some time apart. He was so hurt and angry. I didn't know what to do, so I just shut down. Silly I know. Colin could take this witch head on if only I let him in but I was afraid. Funny, I'm more afraid of my feelings than I am of Regina.
I hated lying to him but the options were made clear to me. Either I go to Damyn and the witch to offer myself willingly to her demands or she would come to Kildare and destroy all that I love and take me anyway. I couldn't allow that to happen. I would do anything to keep Colin safe.
So I made the hard decision to have Egan put me in the doll box and have me sent to Dublin. I would be there before Colin rises for the night and hope that after all this is done that he will still have me. If I survive.